Finally I have graduate from university… The very first batch of Fine Art Degree in Singapore… Sound good? First! Pioneer! … However, that does not really mean anything to me…

Though now I am officially considered as a degree holder… I feel like going all over again and take up a Degree in Finance… A sudden surge in interests in that field… Don’t know whether it is on impulse or what… Nevertheless, I can’t do it anymore… I need to work and earn money!!!

Arts, Media & Design is fun and interesting to learn, however, when it comes to finding a job in this industry, the job kind of doesn’t suits me… Jobs in the creative media are mostly insecure and do not provide a good and stable income. Yes, I agree that in all areas there bound to have money to be made, but just that the lifestyle of a media person is not what I am looking for. A need to work on weekends, sometimes irregular working hours… worse comes to worse, creatively, you are bound by strict rules and regulation…. After my experience in NDP, seems that everyone wants to be a director and everyone one wanted to have a say… Politics, Self-interest and taking media creator in Singapore for granted…

Someone told me before that as a pioneer batch we should be the one to set the path for our juniors and to build a brighter future in this media industry… Frankly speaking, I do not want to be the person or get involved… Yes, I might be doing something great to the local industry, but in the end… what do I get in return? Fame? Recognition? Or $$$$? I am practical… I am looking for money to be made…

Before money can come into my pocket, I ask myself what’s makes the money come? To be good in what you do… Yes, it’s that simple. Now I ask myself again, what am I good at? The answer is anything I am interested in and I am willingly to work hard to achieve it, I will be good at it as times goes by… So does it means I should still stay in the media industry? Confusing!!!


At least… I found her… sometimes I wonder if it is the reason for me to take my Arts Degree… lol~


Though my Mum is not here with me to witness it, I do really hope she will be able to see it somewhere up there and give me her blessing… I really need that extra push to motivate me to move on… I have not feel this lost before…

Seems that this few years I have come to a point that there are no U-turn in things I do… The path ahead of me is straight… I have to really brace myself and continue to move on… Now it really boils down to what I wanted or I can imagine myself doing in the future… Which career lifestyle suits me best… In media? Or in Finance? This is a very important phase of my life and a big decision to be made… No one else can help me… I need to find out myself… 4 month is all I give myself… (Yeah… 4mth in Army for me to think and reflect)… I hope to find this answer… There is no U-Turn… I need to overcome… I have done it before and I will be able to do it again!!!